Sugar Daddy Markus

So where do I begin? I have this friend Markus who is a wonderful guy. He is one of my friends from church here and actually he's in my cell group too. A few weeks ago, he mentions to me that I really should do some recording, blah, blah, blah. And I'm just like yeah, I know, whatever. So this past weekend he tells me he has a friend recording in a studio and we can go with him and talk to the guy about doing some recording. So of course I'm more than happy to do that. I mean he said that it was supposed to be alot cheaper to record here than it is in the states and most everywhere else. I have to say I was a bit suprised that he followed up on this whole recording idea as much as he did. We hadn't really talked about it that much before, so I took it as just him wanting to encourage me in my talents/gifts/whatever. Anyhow, we are going to the studio and I'm excited. We get there, we are introduced, we listen to his friend do some recording, then I got to do some recording as well. That was a bit unexpected. I was just thinking that we would talk to the guy and get prices etc. But Markus was right on top of getting things done and by the end of the night I came home with a cd with a rough track of one of my songs on it.
On the way home, I am totally stoked. For me, I confess, there is a bit of a narcissistic rush from hearing my voice recorded. I feel kind of guilty about it, but it's there and I'm so critical of myself in most areas that I will allow myself to thoroughly revel in the fact that I love the voice God gave me. So anyhow, I'm excited and thinking "Ok, how am I gonna make this work?" The prices quoted were about half of what it would cost at the cheapest of studios in the states, but I am also making half the money that I would in the states. So the project is doable, but not without serious planning/sacrificing/a financial advisor. Trying to figure it all out, I think out loud to Markus on ways I can get it even cheaper. And he says that my ideas are good, but I don't have to worry about it. He's gonna pay for it.

So then I sit there dumbfounded for two minutes.

Then I ask him why. His response is "Because I'm a rich engineer and I have to spend my money on something." I didn't know what to say.

WHY ARE PEOPLE SO NICE TO ME?????!!!!!!

I'm a fairly nice person, but really.... I so don't deserve all this. How do I thank/repay such generosity?

So now, it's someone else's money being spent. This brings on a whole new set of worries though. It's someone else's money, that means I definitely have to do something with this. I can't just record a cd because it's fun and I like to hear myself. SO WHAT AM I GONNA DO? I have not a clue. I could go in different directions with it. The safest seems to be to do a christianish cd. I could sell the cd through my church, maybe put together a band from different musicians at church. We could perform there and maybe do some performing elsewhere through an endless supply of church connections. I'm not totally opposed to this idea. It does seem the most realistic for me. The main downside is song choice. I've written alot of really good non-christian related songs, but maybe I should just let them sit to the side for now.

Another option is do whatever songs I want and try to put a band together based on my stuff. Maybe, if I get the right people in there, somebody will have connections with where we can play/sell cds/ get radio time, etc. But there are too many maybe's in that equation for me to feel comfortable with it.

Trying to do this solo is not even an option anymore. I am sick to death of performing with only me. I must have other musicians. I have no desire to do it on my own.

Sigh. So much to think about. Wish me luck. I need to go to bed now I suppose.

(Alternate titles for this blog)

(1) The Award for Super-Dooper-Friend-of-the-Year goes to...

(2) Marry Me, Markus

(3) Why Couldn't God have Made Me Rich, Instead of so Damn Good-Looking

(4) Confessions of a Narcissist

(5) WOO HOO!